Monday, April 30, 2007

Blah, Blah, Blah

What a wonderful weekend we had. It was relaxing and the weather was beautiful! Tom went and purchased his cap and gown for graduation on the 12th and then we drank cold Corona's with limes and had pizza for dinner. Yum!!! Something about warm, sunny weather makes me crave a Corona. Sunday after church we played around outside with kids and did nothing. It was fantastic! Tonight, Tom and I are having a mini date night with dinner out and shopping for stuff for the house!(surprise, surprise) We have a ridiculously busy month approaching us. Tom's graduation, a trip to COSI with Chloe's Brownie Troop, a trip to the Zoo with Janey's class, moving, end of the school year wrap-ups, Janey's pre-school graduation just to name a few. Why does everything have to happen at once? I hope everyone had a sun-filled, relaxing and fun weekend!

Friday, April 27, 2007


this is how i feel. like the rock above. i feel as though i am just sitting here not going anywhere, but as i sit there all these beautiful things are growing around me. i kept tom up late last night running my mouth about how i have been feeling lately and how i feel the need to re-invent myself. i have been a wife for almost 10 years and a mother for 7. i feel as though i have "lost" myself. who i am, what i believe, what i want to do. my wants and dreams and desires. i know we all have places we want to see or things we want to do. i have a list in my mind that is a zillion miles long of places i am waiting to travel to. i LOVE being a wife and a mother and i wouldn't trade either of them for anything in the world, but i need just a little bit more. there are three things specifically that i have an unstifling urge to do. first and foremost, i want to get fit. yes, i am overweight and flabby. (thank you my lovely children) but it is more than getting into a size 6 or looking good in a bathing suit. i want to be fit and lean and healthy. i want to RUN in a marathon. Seriously, i was as shocked by the urge to do this as much as you who know me probably are. i have always said, i don't run unless someone is chasing me. now, i love a good fast paced walk, but a runner i am not. so, now i need to figure out how to get lean and fit and healthy and how to train for a marathon, all with three young children to take care of. i am taking suggestions.
the next change i am wanting to make, is an educational change. i want to go back to school. Chloe and i had a conversation the other day about college and how living arrangements work and i was telling her a little about my college days, being careful not to divulge incriminating information about those years or to give her ideas for when she does get there. she said, "but you don't DO anything mommy" Huh, wha..., i don't!!!! I said to her I am a mommy to you and Janey and Nolan. to which she says, "but you don't have a job." so now, i am more determined to go back to school to show my girls that they can have a college degree, a career and be a mommy. it is so okay to be a feminist while staying at home to raise children. i want them to know that they can have it all if they want, and what better way to tell them that, then to lead by example.
lastly, the other component i am wanting to incorporate in my life is to find a cause that i am passionate about and that i believe in, and volunteer my time for that organization. i do volunteer at Chloe's school and at our church, but i want to help in a bigger way. we have talked about taking chloe to a shelter and have us all help in some way or another. but again, i want to lead by example. i really want to help people that need it. i feel like i still have a lot to give.

maybe all this is coming to head as i slowly realize that am a 31. time isn't slowing down or standing still, instead it is travelling at speeds that i have never experienced before. i know i am young, but i don't want 41 to come and go and say "oh, i still have time, i am ONLY 41!" then 51, 61, so on and so on. that can't happen.
if you are still reading this, i apologize for the kind of post this is. but maybe if i put these desires and goals out there i will be sure to follow through with them. after all, i am already 31 and time is just a ticking away...........

Thursday, April 26, 2007


an update on my friend; she had a little boy yesterday at around 4:00pm. He was just shy of 500 grams. I spoke with her last night and they were able to decrease his oxygen to 30%, so he was breathing some on his own. Wonderful news!! Unfortunately, he does have a tough road ahead of him and he has to meet quite a few benchmarks before he will be able to go home. She told me that they most likely will discharge him closer to his due date which is in late August. Thank you to all who prayed for her and the baby. Miracles do happen. Oh, they named him Luke.
We have had an uneventful week. Just counting down the days until the house is finished. Which, couldn't happen sooner. I know I have bitched and moaned about this many times, but seriously, i think I am on the verge of crazy here. I feel like Melvin Udoll(sp?) in As Good As it Gets when the lady comes knocking and he tells her to sell crazy somewhere else, because he is all stocked up at his place. That sums up how I feel. I don't think I can take much more. On a positive note, they have begun to lay the wood floor and all the flooring is in in the upstairs bathrooms and laundry room. The cabinets and counter tops are in, the fireplace is done and the doors and trim are all painted. So really, it is finishing the floors, installing the fixtures, finishing the plumbing. Hopefully, only 2-3 more weeks at the most! We are going by tonight with the camera so I will post some pictures tomorrow.
So excited for this evening, it is a bottle of wine and Grey's Anatomy night! Yipee!!

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

prayers for a friend

I have been terrible about blogging recently. So sorry. Today I am asking for prayers and positive thoughts for a friend and her baby. She is a friend of mine since high school and she is expecting a little boy(due date in Aug). She was at a routine U/S yesterday and was told that some of the babies measurements are behind. Specifically his legs and arms and the placenta is dying. She is 24 weeks along and unless they have to do an emergency c-section today due to a lowering heartbeat, they are taking the baby tomorrow via c-section. It has been an emotional rollercoaster for her as so many doctors are getting her hopes up to then crush them with worse case scenarios. They also have a little girl that is 4 and friends with Chloe and Janey. Please, if you will, say a little prayer for her and the baby. I know that they have miraculous neonatal care now, but all the prayers you can give would be so very appreciated.

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

SPC #3 My Secret Weapon

I am finally getting back on track with the Self Portrait Challenge this week. April's challenge is all about body parts. Even the ones that may wobble a bit. Now, after three kids not a lot of my parts DON"T wobble. I chose to photograph what I feel are one of my best assets. My chest. Boobs, tiddies, tits, puppies, breasts, um, humps?! Whatever you want to call them. More specifically I chose to photograph my cleavage. I didn't really want to completely expose myself and I needed to keep it PG.

My cleavage or chest has really done a lot for me over the years. Funny, I know. I did get made fun of them when I was younger because I developed before all my friends did, but then I became the object of all of their envy as we got a little older! I have gotten free drinks with them in the past, especially handy when you are a poor college student!! They have nourished all three of my children. And they still make my hubby hot for me. Yes, they aren't as perky as they once were *whimper whimper cry* They probably aren't as pretty as they were when I was 17, but by golly they are mine and they are real!

Friday, April 13, 2007

It's my turn to play!

Amanda at ~Party of Four~ tagged me. It is my first real tag. I stole something like this awhile back. So here it goes.........
What are five things that make you automatically happy?
1. Seeing Tom come home from work.
2. The sun.
3. My kids all playing nice together.
4. Unexpectedly hearing a really good song come on.
5. Road trips.
What are five things that give you physical pleasure?
1. Um, not sure if I should say it, but S.E.X
2. Drinking good wine
3. The first cup of coffee in the AM
4. Walking
5. A foot rub from my hubby.
What re five things that make you immediately angry?
1. Bad drivers!!
2. Nolan's screechy screaming that he has taken to doing recently
3. People that take up the entire aisle w/their cart or just themselves.
4. The media.
5. *See previous post*
What are five things that make you automatically sad?
1. The thought of anything happening to my family.
2. Children who become sick with a terminal illness.
3. Cancer
4. Thinking of my children growing up in a world filled w/fear and hatred.
5. Seeing my babies grow up at the blink of an eye.
I tag you Mollie and anyone else who may want to play! Have a great weekend people! Peace, love and happiness!

Thursday, April 12, 2007

What are things coming to?

I am treating my blog as a place where I can keep friends up to date on our life and my kids. But I also treat it as a soap box that I can climb upon and shout out my opinion or viewpoint. Or bitch and gripe. Which ever I feel like doing on any given day. So today's post I am sitting on my soap box and bitchin'. I am so tired, so sick and tired of everything being politically correct. I am all for people being treated equally and being kind to one another and the Golden Rule and the like. But I am tired of people not being allowed this so called freedom of speech that we as Americans supposedly have. There have been so many recent events that have happened that, frankly, are irritating to listen to. I am sure you all know what I am talking about. The media is a joke, and they have to rehash everything. Let's move on people. Thus being one reason I prefer not to watch the news. I don't agree with the things that Imus, or Kramer or that dude from 'Grey's Anatomy' have said, but it is their right to feel or think that way. And it is also everyone's right to listen or not listen to them. Right? I mean I have the ability to change my radio station or the television channel. And I can also choose who I would see in a stand-up show or on stage. Don't we all have that choice? Let me say right now, I am not racist or against any one's sexual preference. I feel all people were created and loved by God and everyone should be treated the same regardless of the things that make us different. Isn't that what makes things so interesting among the human world? Our differences! But could we all just stop walking on eggshells around each other and accept each other. People can be so self-righteous and catty. This judgement goes beyond race and sexual orientation. It goes into different religions, different political views, varying income levels and even working mothers versus stay at home mothers. We all think we do things better than the next. Why can't we all just accept the fact we are different, with different opinions and feelings, but we all want the same thing, to be accepted and loved and have a little place in this world that we feel safe and that we can call our home. Let's move on already!!!! I am now hopping down off my box. Thanks for the gripe session.

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Will it EVER be done?!?!

I am seriously needing this house of ours to done. The old saying, "You can never go home again", is so flippin' true. I think I am going to lose it. Not only am I sick again, but now with a stomach thing or food poisoning (I am not sure which it is) but living here is driving me batty. I need this house to be done. We just received the word Monday that the tentative completion date is May 22nd. Son of a ........... Please hurry workers. I feel like time is just barely ticking along.
The great room and fireplace

The master soaker bathtub

My Boudoir (oh, and Tom's too)
The kitchen sans cabinets or anything else for that matter
Tomorrow is another day, and it will be better. Maybe that should be my new mantra. Yes, I think it will be.

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

It's April!! NO MORE SNOW!!!!

We had a busy, packed, COLD weekend!! The pictures of Chloe playing soccer are from last week. It was too cold and snowy for them to play this last Saturday! Even though it was snowing and cold, we dyed our Easter Eggs on Saturday and celebrated my Dad's birthday. We were all going to go out to dinner(14 people in all), but thankfully he decided he would be just as happy ordering pizza and celebrating at home. I was not looking forward to doing the nice restaurant thing with the kids and having to keep Nolan entertained while 14 dinners were prepared and then having to keep him sitting still while everyone enjoyed their dinners. I don't know if all boys are like this, but no joke, he eats all of his dinner in three maybe four huge mouth fulls and he is done and on to something else. Needless to say, I was happy about staying home where he can go and play when he is done eating.
We woke up Sunday morning to a snow covered ground and thinking that Santa had come, not the Easter bunny! The kids found their hidden Easter baskets and the eggs that the bunny hid, and then proceeded to gorge themselves on chocolate for breakfast before church. It's the only day they are allowed to eat candy for breakfast, I swear! After church, we had an Easter egg hunt outside bundled in our winter coats and boots. The kids still enjoyed themselves and loved their treats
Hopefully, the weather breaks soon and we get some of those sunny 75 degree days back. I am feeling down in the dumps with this yucky weather and the fact that I am not in my own home doesn't help matters either. I am officially in a funk. And I need a swift kick in my ass to get out of it.
I hope you all had a great Easter weekend and that you were are able to keep warm. I promise to myself, next week I will get back on track with the Self-Portrait Challenge. I find that I am missing doing them. I need some sort of creative outlet in my life!!
"Gotta get more eggs!!!"

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

They got me!!

The yucky, blucky germ bugs that is. I thought I had gotten off pretty lucky. I mean three kids and I never once got sick all winter. No, instead it decides to rear it's ugly head in Spring. Saturday afternoon I started to feel kinda achy and my throat was scratchy and I knew it was coming. Sure enough, shortly before the game I was bundled in clothes and two blankets w/ a temp of 102. So we didn't get to our friends house to watch the game, instead we stayed home and I watched it in and out of conciseness. Sunday was worse. But let me tell you how wonderful my husband and kids are. Chloe made me so many cards and pictures and Janey kept rubbing my head and telling me that she loved me. My poor little guy kept wanting to give me kisses and didn't understand why I wouldn't let him. And then there is that better half of mine. He did everything for the kids and me. He even took yesterday off from work so I could rest and he would be there for the kids. Then took the girls to Chloe's schools last skating party for the year. How on earth did I get so lucky? I did end up going to the doctors yesterday and it is strep throat. I don't react well to strep. It completely sucks all the energy from my body. And don't you just love how drinking something as simple as water feels like swallowing shards of glass?! Needless to say, I have no pics to share today, unless you all would like to see the loveliness that is going on in my throat? No?! Trust me it's a sight! The great thing is I have lost 5 lbs in just 3 days! BONUS!!!!
I really wanted to participate in the newest SPC. Hopefully next week I will have a picture for it. Hope you all are healthy and germ-free!